Monday, November 15, 2010

I used to dream of freedom.

Just before I start this blog, I would like to preface it with a wee message to those who follow. I apologize for not writing the last couple days. You see, after my "Meals on Wheels" blog I went out skateboarding in the park, and biffed it hardcore and hurt myself :) sooooo now I'm doin' okay, and I'm back! So, without further a due!

P.s. I wrote this blog at work, and I was distracted by customers.  So I feel like it's not a very good blog compared to my previous ones.  However it is something to read and think about. I also feel like it's going to be hard to follow because my thought processes were jumping all over the place, annnnnd I found it very hard to put into words what I was trying to get across, haha! Sooooo Good luck!

*Beginning of Blog*

I am a singer/songwriter. I am a bagpiper, and I'm currently the frontman of a rock band that is to date known as "Slant".  Now if you happen to stumble upon this blog and you're not someone who already knows me.  Save your time looking up the band, because we're not online or anything..... yet.

In my first year of university I wrote a song about my parents, It's called "Growing Pains". The first line of the song is "I used to dream of freedom, I couldn't wait to leave 'em.  How could I ever been so wrong".  This popped into my head the other day. I'm not sure what it was, but something I was doing reminded me of things my parents used to tell me. Ya know, those things where you look all starry eyed at your parents and simply say "I don't get it" and they respond with "You'll understand when you're older" well, this is actually true.  Your parents only "hold your hand" to lead you through things that they feel you wouldn't otherwise be able to handle.  To make a long story short, they worry about you, and they want to protect you. It's instinctive so be nice about it, and remember ya' only get one set of parents. And I'm not just speaking about biological parents. Because if you're a person who was adopted, your biological parents don't count, so in all means be a douche to them if you want. But the ones that raised you, provided they weren't awful ( I mean, awful as in, shouldn't have children because they are horrible people) . 

 It was in my first year of university that I started partying and stuff. But it was then that I realized how different the world is. It's like growing up just sort of happens.  One day you're at home and your mom is making you breakfast before you go to school. The next day you're living on your own and noticing things that you didn't notice before.  A lot of times the things are not the nicest. Which is what the first line of the song alludes to. "I used to dream of freedom, I couldn't wait to leave 'em, how could I ever been so wrong? You only held my hand to lead me through the broken land, and now it seems it didn't really take that long". 20 years. That's how long it took. That's how long my parents had to protect me, but at the same time make me ready to face what is a pretty nasty world. So, therein lies the problem. In one way it's great because you're protected from this stuff and it lets your mind develop in a more optimistic way. But in another way it leaves you slightly unprepared for the realities of life.

The second verse of the song goes "I used to picture my life, thinking when I turned 25 everything you ever said would all be wrong.  But now I realize that none could ever been as wise as you two were, telling me things when I was young". And that's where the confusion ends. When you realize that all that bullshit that your parents told you when you were a kid, is true. And without even knowing it, you were able to handle a situation due to something your parents told you when you were a kid.  Maybe this is just me, maybe it's not.  What are your opinion's on it? I'd love to know.
 
P.s. I wrote this blog at work, and I was distracted by customers.  So I feel like it's not a very good blog compared to my previous ones.  However it is something to read and think about. I also feel like it's going to be hard to follow because my thought processes were jumping all over the place, annnnnd I found it very hard to put into words what I was trying to get across, haha! Sooooo Good luck!

1 comment:

  1. I'm the same way. I realize this isn't exactly the same as yours, but it's what comes to mind. As a child it was always TV privileges that were taken away if I did something I wasn't supposed to do. As an 'adult' I don't even watch tv. Not that that's significant... but it was like "eat your vegetables, or you're going to get sick." "You can only have dessert after you've had your supper" Those things are the first that have come to mind because they're so real, and so forward in everyday life. To be healthy, one has to eat properly, and to do that, one should really eat their veggies. I'm not in the mindset to think of any more examples... but there are the few I thought of right away.

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