That's okay, they're just afraid of change

It's been close to a month since my last post. This leaves me to realize just how much a person can change in the course of a month. A lot has happened to me in this past month. At times I was on top of the world. Nothing could stand in my way. Then all of a sudden everything is on the brink of pure devastation. I will dwell on it. I think whatever put me in the "funk" through a little bit, and generally I will deduce that things are still okay. However, these momentary lapses in sheer bliss are essential. I always come out of them with an altered view on things, a new way of listening, speaking or seeing things. These lapses, these... voids, they push me in the direction that I need to be. They provide me with the proper amount of time to spend inside my own thoughts so that I can remain content.


Slightly shy of five months ago, I was a completely different person than I am today. All change, thankfully has been for the better. Maybe it's just that I'm getting older, starting to see things in a new light. This is a possibility, in fact, it's the most likely answer to the changes. But I think though it's a factor, it's only being a catalyst for something bigger. 


It only takes a couple seconds, to completely change your world. Which leaves me to be baffled at how much things can change in a month. It can be as simple as a smile on a homeless persons face. It can be a long, deep conversation that you've had with someone. Anything that makes you think. And that, is what some would call the "kicker". For me, change all comes back to thought. 


As we get older, we start to see things differently, but when it comes to how we interpret the world around us, how we think about our experiences, and what we learn from them, to each his own. 


A lot of my recent realizations have a lot to do with society, as I'm sure anyone who knows me could have guessed. It's not so much an anarchical vying against authority as it is being frustrated with the thought processes of modern day people. I leave it alone, I don't bug them about it, which alone makes me feel like I'm on a slightly different level than other people. I can't for the life of me understand some of the concepts in modern society. A lot of it just seems so nonsensical to me. But, people have the right to their thoughts. If I find that they seem to have unintelligent and inefficient ways of doing things, there's nothing I can do about it. All I can do is accept it, and continue to do what makes me happy, and a big middle finger to all those who think that that is selfish. 


Doing what makes you happy, while not stepping on the toes of others. That is the key. There's no denying the shitty state of todays world. For a long time, I was on the team saying "We can change the world if we all work together, and believe that we can". As of this morning, I revoke that statement and frame of mind. The world has gone to shit, and there is nothing anyone can do to change it. However, you can change yourself. Our society has become a massive "mob mentality". You go to school, because it's what everyone else does, and it's taboo not to. You work, because everyone else does, or because you're told to. (Work may be considered a bad example because it's needed to pay bills) I work, to pay bills. I have a slight difference to it though. I'm doing exactly what I want to do, no strings attached. I'm working a job that I love, I'm spending time with people whom I love, and doing everything for me. Contrary to popular belief, this is not selfish. Not only that, but I personally believe that it could be the secret to saving the world. 


If everyone did what they wanted (within the confines of laws of course) without greed, without hate and without harming others than the world could be a much better place.


Now, don't get me wrong, the world could also not change. Because there is a chance that there would still be a few insatiable people, who let greed get in the way of happiness. Moving to Grande Prairie, I've really gained a better understanding of greed. It's such a strange culture out here, compared to what I'm used to. It seems that there is money everywhere, and it came from nowhere. Work ethic is odd. People want everything imaginable, but they never want to work. They just want it handed to them. There is a reason why greed was one of the seven deadly sins.


Which leads me to religion, as a society, not a way of life. In my own personal opinion, from excerpts of things that I've read and interpreted, or from conversations I've had, or just about anything with the power of influence, is that our prophets who came about were good people, with good ideas about how you should live life so that the world would be a good place. 


Most of their teachings had to do with love, justice and peace. THESE ARE FANTASTIC IDEAS! Blowing up other people with a different prophet/ slightly different views (on the super natural side of things anyway) IS NOT WHAT RELIGION IS SUPPOSED TO BE ABOUT! But then you could argue "that religions are supposed to preach unto others and try to make them see the light". Yes, very true. HOWEVER if you think about it, that was at one time a good idea. "Spread the word, this is a good way to live, this is how to be a good person... LOVE EACH OTHER". And why the hell not tell people that? That's a good idea right? So is turning the other cheek. "Oh man, you don't agree with me? That's shitty dude, well I hope things work out for you :)" As opposed to what it turned in to. "You don't agree with me?!!? I'm going to LIGHT YOU ON FUCKING FIRE! AND SAY THAT GOD TOLD ME TO DO IT SO THAT I CAN HAVE MORE POWER!" Once again it all returns to greed.


The hearts of men are weak. But some are strong, and more and more I see people taking that second glance and questioning the bullshit. That's the beginning, eventually it gets more and more, but it's all 100% up to what you do with yourself.


Micheal Jackson had it down right man. "If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and make a change"